Chad Lowe has admitted he was shocked by his estranged wife Hilary Swank's decision to expose some of their personal problems to Vanity Fair earlier this year. "It has been a tough year and not something I expected," Lowe told Extra. "It's very humbling. I was disappointed that the details of our relationship became public. They were absolutely true, absolutely true. I've been sober for three and a half years and very grateful for that... She was the love of my life and that's not something you just shut off. I will always love her... I am so grateful to Hilary for her support of me in a very difficult time in my life three and a half years ago. What hurt more than anything is that people would think that she wasn't there for me and she was."source